Saturday, January 27, 2007 School has been disastrous.

I don't know whether it's the tremendously huge amt of hw given by msfazlin that's making me weary in lessons or that I'm returning home late recently and doing hw @ night.

I never used to do all my hw @ night, mostly and only in the late afternoon. Hm perhaps January has been a way too rushy month for me and unfortunately I've failed to catchup with the pace so therefore I'm feeling like this.

Sometimes, I don't have the feeling to come to school, really. Unlike my previous years, when I admitted that school was heaven and it's more than a second home to me, I've always said school rocks I can meet my friends blarrgh whatsoever.

But now, I'm feeling veryvery tired in lessons, mostly after recess lessons. I've the tendency to lay my head on the table and listen to lessons now. For worse cases, I've slept in lessons. I don't want that, definitely. How am I gonna survive in Sec 3 & 4 when in Sec 2, I already think I'm facing stress?

Conclusion obtained:
TIREDNESS = STRESS ERUPTING MY MIND!

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Stress aside. These days, I've been having mere gastric pain. Dad said it's due to the numerous days I haven't been having my lunch, so it consolidated to gastric. I don't think so, I've been eating healthily and seriously I think my diet's normal. But my appetite would be filled up always when it comes to lunch and dinner.

I DON'T WANT THAT, I'm supposed to eat, drink and live like an ordinary guy. I'm supposed to eat more and gain weight like what I've promised at the start of the year. But look now, I'm having gastric pains and nothing seems to be able to satisfy my stomach, or rather, my stomach has been rejecting all sorts of food I consume.

WHY? WHY? WHY?

Why do problems only occur in Sec 2? I thought I already had no other problems, but it seems like more & more unexpectable problems are invading me. Hmmph, I HATE MYSELF SUDDENLY. Ohno.

But, life still has to go on. What can I do? Find a rope and hang myself to death? Proceed to the 12th storey and jump down from there? Burn myself with a lighter and die? I can't and I don't dare. Haha! I'm afraid of death, but so what? Who isn't? Haha:]

Okay neh, none of the above are part of my emoness. I've quitted to be emo, or rather, was I even emo that once? I don't think so, yahaha!

It's ASHLEY'S GOLDEN DAY TODAY & she confessed her love to me!

..haha no lah. :p ----